I thought I was doing better 
Guess Im not 
I thought I was moving closer 
But Im moving sideways 
I thought I was done hurting 
But Im still punching the wall


I thought I could be the girl I wanted to be 
The girl you want me to be 
But it doesnt look good right now 
It looks like Ill never get there 
I cant ever stop 
I cant stop hurting you


I hate knowing that you still feel that way 
I hate thinking that Im never going to be different 
I hate seeing you feel that you'll never be good enough 
I hate this part right here 
I hate being the source of your pain


So tired of breaking you down 
So tired of seeing you on the ground 
So tired of seeing you barely above water 
But its me who puts you there 
Its me who keeps you there 
Its me who wants you there...


I dont want it anymore 
I dont want any of it anymore 
I just want to see you stand 
I just want to see you walk 
To see you swim 
To see you happy.